I AM

I AM

What is God? Who is God? Where is God?

These are questions that mankind has asked for millennia. The evolution of the concept of God has progressed for generations. Thousands of years ago humans believed there were thousands of Gods. The Greeks, the Romans, the Hindus, the Sumerians, and many more civilizations believed that each event that occurred was the result of a God or Goddess.

With the rise of the teachings of Judaism, Christianity, and Islam the idea of one God became prevalent. Even still the questions still arise: What is God? Who is God? Where is God? With that there come many more questions. For example, why is God? How is God? Is God everywhere? Is there a heaven, a hell, an afterlife?

Religious leaders try to answer these questions with scripture, historical events, miracles, and a multitude of other sources. But do they really know? Does anyone know? When you ask your friends what they believe they may respond, “I am a follower of Jesus.” What does that mean? Do you know? Do they know? What did Jesus preach? We can read the Bible and historical texts from Jesus’ life, but what was he really saying?

As I meditate these questions plus many more come to mind. I don’t know why I have these thoughts or where they originate, but they are there. I have always felt confident in my beliefs and teachings of my church, but over the past few months I have been having a lot of questions in regards to what I thought I knew.

I have read scripture, I listen to the priest and the words of God every Sunday, but I’m not sure I really understood their true meaning. I have been told what they meant, but never actually analyzed the words for myself. I have never believed that many of the stories in the Bible should be taken literally, but I also didn’t delve deep enough to fully understand the concepts being preached. I thought I knew, but now I’m not sure.

All of this second guessing, questioning, pondering has come about through meditation. I thought I was meditating for health benefits, peace of mind, calm, not to embark on a spiritual quest for truth, but that is exactly where I find myself today.

I have been reading every book I can get my hands on for the past 3 months dealing with metaphysics, self-awareness, awakening. I’m not sure how I got to this point, but now I am fascinated with the subject. I feel like I am getting very close to fully understanding the whole idea of God on a deeper level.

You know those people that say “I was saved when I was 7. I felt the Holy Spirit in me.” I never believed those people. I didn’t even know what that meant or how that felt. I think they just wanted to be accepted by their peers and thought it was the thing to do. Maybe they had some spiritual awakening, but I’m not sure it’s what I’m experiencing right now.

I believe what I have discovered is on a much deeper level, but maybe I have just finally arrived at the place they found long before me. I don’t really know and it doesn’t really matter. I am still far from knowing the truth, but I’m sure I’m on the right track.

While I was meditating one afternoon I had an epiphany. I have been having a lot of epiphanies lately, but this one in particular stood out for me so I made a note of it. I was recently reading a book, “The Power of Awareness,” and in it the author discussed the idea of assumption. The Law of Assumption is similar to the Law of Attraction.

Essentially the Law of Assumption states that you must see yourself living the live you dream. In other words, assume that what you imagine is reality. By doing this, having these vivid thoughts, it will eventually become your reality. If you want a new job, new home, new girlfriend, etc. then you must first imagine it so and then it will become so.

The Law of Assumption states that creation is already completed. Everything you experience was created long ago. Your reality is just manifesting based on your thoughts. If you don’t like your reality simply change your thoughts. As long as you believe it fully then it will be.

This idea has completely changed my thoughts. I always thought if I wanted something I should ask God and if it was meant to be it would be. At the same time though I always believed that if I wanted something bad enough it would come to pass. I have had experience with both circumstances, but if I really think about it the things I ask God for are things I really want to happen, therefore, it happens.

So that concept got me thinking. If I can simply imagine something and it happen then what role does God play in this? To make things more confusing I have been reading a lot of books that discuss the idea of source energy and the “I AM” concept.

Source energy is easy to understand. It’s the idea that there is energy all around us and within us. We are energy. We are matter, and matter is energy. We are made up of trillions of tiny particles moving very quickly which have bonded together to form our solid body. This source energy can be shared with everything in our universe. Those people that bring light into a room when they walk in, they have energy. You feel the energy radiating from their bodies and it makes you happy. You probably experience this most with people you know and care about.

Every culture has a word for this source energy. Christians, Muslims, and Jews call it God. The Chinese refer to it as Chi. Hindus call it prana. Energy is derived from your breath, which comes from your inner self. This inner self is your soul. The soul is the “I AM.”

What is I AM? It is the real you. Not your experiences, not your thoughts, it’s the voice telling you that you are having thoughts. It is your subconscious. The I AM was created before you were born and will be here after your body has died. It is infinite. It will always be and always has been.

After your body is gone your energy, your soul, your I AM, will return to the universe. Maybe it will go to Heaven, maybe it won’t. Maybe you will become one with the universe and your energy will be forever floating through space and time. I really have no clue at this point. All I know is that the answer is somewhere and I am seeking the answer.

As the Bible says “Ask and ye shall receive, seek and ye shall find.” I am asking, and I am seeking. I hope to know the answer at some point. If we take a step back and analyze this scripture what is it really saying? Is this justifying and revealing the truth in the Law of Assumption? If we ask for something and imagine it, does that mean we will receive it? Is seeking truth the first step in finding the answer?

Those are things to ponder. Things I ponder.

So if we agree that God is everywhere in the universe and we derive our energy through God, then where is God? Is God in us? Is the I AM part of our being, our soul - God? If we can manifest our dreams into reality simply by using our imagination then what part of this idea involves a God? If we are the ones creating our reality through our thoughts then what role is God playing?

If we are all created from the same fabric of life, same energy, and same source, then we are all one. I am you and you are me. So where does God exist? Is he in the gap between space? Is he inside of us? I recently asked myself if meditation was prayer. Literally 5 seconds later in a book I was reading the answer appeared. The words were “Prayer is when we speak to God, meditation is when we listen.”

So when we meditate and we enter the gap – the space between thoughts and there is silence, but peace - that is God. We reach God in his fullness when we meditate.  But I am still unsure where God is and what role he plays. It seems to me that when we meditate we are looking inward and when we look inward we find stillness, peace, and silence. This is where we connect with God.

So logically speaking God is inside of us and in our hearts. So how do we know God is in us? Must we accept some form of teachings by a prophet? Buddha, Jesus, the Apostles, and thousands of people throughout time have preached the idea of loving your neighbor as yourself, peace, non-violence, introspection through quiet solitude reached through prayer - essentially meditation. Were they all speaking of ways to connect with God?

Again, we find God in our hearts. The Bible says we must accept God and his ways in order to feel his love. So God is in us, our souls, and he is our I AM. How do we know when we have achieved this state of awareness where God is with us and in us? I think the closest I have been to feeling that form of bliss, harmony, and love has been through meditation.

Although I have spent my entire life praying every day before I began meditating I felt like I was just talking to myself. Imaging what I wanted and many times it would come to fruition. However, I didn’t fully understand who I was talking to and how things were happening. Now I believe that I have been talking to my I AM, my soul, and through the power of the Law of Assumption I have been able to manifest the things in which I desired most.

Furthermore, I think that inside of me, I AM, is actually connected to God. If I have the power to achieve everything I desire through my thoughts alone, and God gives us what we ask for, then is it possible that the energy source inside of me, I AM, is actually God? Not that I am God, but that God is me?

In other words, is my soul God? If I am creating, and God gives what we ask for, then I must be God. In order to believe this you must wipe away the concept that God is a long white bearded man in the clouds. Instead you must accept that God is an energy source and that energy is all around us, even in us.

This energy creates what we desire. We alone have the ability to imagine whatever we choose and through this process we can change our reality. This comes from within from the I AM. Therefore, I AM, must be God since it is what we derive our inner strength from and what creates our destiny.

Is our soul God?

I think, therefore I am.